John 16:33

"in this world you will have trouble. but take heart! i have overcome the world."

As I sit in my bed... 2 days before my wedding... i'm pondering upon this verse. my life has been turned around in the last four weeks. I'm trying to be like Sarah, Abraham's wife, but sometimes i feel like i'm failing. I'm trying to strive for the best thing. I'm trying to provide for my almost husband in the ways that he needs me to. And, i'm trying to juggle life too...

this verse just popped in my head tonight. After spending a few hours in the hospital probably saying goodbye to the dearest "grandma" in his life, we came home to a house of busy, happy people. needless to say, i've been fighting tears.

but, she's a child of God. she has lived a full 93 years of life. she'll be running around when she gets to heaven. it's just that... i look over at my fiance and he has huge tears on the brim of his eyes as she talks about how he was one of her favorite "grandchildren." i want to help them both. love them. care for them. i want what heaven has to offer. right here. right now.

yet, Jesus reminds us that HE has overcome this world. HE is enough. HE is our protector and Savior.

I'm getting married... in less than 48 hours. I have no house, nothing to really call our own. We have nothing. But, we do have love and family and maybe even Grandma Beck if God chooses to heal her frail body. that's what counts. because, in those things, God chooses to bless richly.