day dreaming.

today, i've been working hard preparing lunch for Friday. I made pasta salad, homemade chocolate chip cookies, half of the fruit salad (the rest will be cut up tomorrow), the sandwiches just need to be made tomorrow afternoon...

we're taking my brothers up to the St. Lawrence seaway. it will be so fun!

this struck me today:

"all the paths of the Lord are steadfast love and faithfulness, for those who keep his covenant and his testimonies." Psalm 25:10

i'm trying to be like Abraham and Sarah. I am trying to follow, even when i don't know where I'll end up. this morning, after Patrick left and I was getting ready for life... which at the moment, excludes any sense of routine in my life (i don't like not having a routine)... i started thinking about where we are. where I am. I'm here... in this little blue room with my husband. I have been searching for jobs... over and over again... and i apparently haven't gone the right direction. so, it's me and God. I read that verse up there today and gained some hope. Clearly, i have no routine, full-time job, or even a place to live other than at my parents, but ALL of the paths that the Lord puts before me are laden with steadfast love and faithfulness. that means, it's not my job to fuss and complain. It's not my job to worry about what comes next or get upset when things don't go how i imagine them to go. what a perspective!

so, i got home from doing some things and proceeded to cook and bake my life away. Kari Jobe, Meredith Andrews, and I sang away. Okay okay, I was singing along with their cd's, but... it was refreshing. i love singing.

this is how i want to look. excited, but curious and ready for whatever comes next.