embracing the silence

i've been embracing the silent times this week while my family was away and Patrick was at work. there is so much that has to be done in life. so much that my mind focuses on at the same time. but, i got a new cd this week since i was craving good, godly music. while cleaning and cooking in the heat, i sang along to the songs as my mind artfully captured the lyrics and melody. but, then track ten came and i grew silent. i could help but be swept away in the words that so needed to define my life.

i struggle sometimes with not getting "the job" that everyone expects when you walk away from college with a degree. i worked so hard and people will always ask what you're doing. or where you're working or why you aren't working. there are so many many voices in my head. yet, here i am (where God wants me apparently): home. but, i always wanted to be the wife who made special meals and desserts for her husband. this week, i got a taste of it. maybe... just maybe i'm supposed to clean offices on the side and take care of other things in life. we'll see...

anyways. back to track ten. it captivated me. it struck me and then i went to Scripture to spend more time in silence with my God. i am amazed at how God sometimes grabs our attention. my craving for new music to just sing to at the top of my lungs left me speechless. my heart was touched and challenged to embrace the moments that i feel inadequate. because, i'm not. God is my fulfillment. God is my strength. God is my purpose.

so, i'm embracing the silent moments. i'm drinking it up, because sometimes, that is all one needs...

check out these lyrics:
www.meredithandrews.com/discography/album/long-it-takes/your-arms