humbled.

woah! today i have been humbled. sometimes, it feels good to be humbled before the Almighty God. and, that's what today felt like. whilst thinking about our cute little house and the cute little antique i'm working on for that cute little house, i can get carried away thinking about the fact that i don't have that cute little house...

then, the bad news of the world hits home, and i am completely humbled and thankful for the things that i have, for i am lacking no love or happiness. and, quite frankly, even though we're living in this little bedroom, i am happy, fulfilled, and joyful.

some very dear people to my heart are hurting. love is gone. love faded or was corrupted by sinful choices on other people's behalf. so, here i am. i can choose to be grumpy about the silly house situation, or i can choose to reach out and love on those who are hurting the most.

i choose the latter. whining is overrated.

i'm wondering what in the world makes people push love away. obviously we're all sinful, but may i also state that love is the one thing that everyone is searching for?! wouldn't it make sense to cling to love? the answer is: yes. but so often man is blinded by themselves or the fear of something unknown.

on another note, i watched my six year old brother's very first soccer game. let me tell you, if any of you are stressed, go watch a six year old soccer game. you'll laugh your head off. :) hahaha... 3 of the girls on the team actually kicked the ball. the other one wore pink sunglasses with her long blonde hair waving all over and, in the middle of a goal she runs off the field 'cause she "has to go potty." one boy just stood there and let the ball roll at his feet, and kicked a minute later when the ball was already gone. and, my munchkin, well, he tried to be his brother. he was doing "trick" moves... but, they worked zero percent of the time. hahahaha! oh six year olds... how i love them.

i oftentimes have a heart full of compassion. i want to help the sad, weary, broken, and those lacking things. this week, i am going to try to focus on that.

"when you're experiencing the freedom of Christ and ministering the compassion of Christ, then your light will break out like the dawn."

here i am. humbled. happy. compassionate. this is what God has put in my heart and mind. this is what i will strive for: to be happy no matter what. to be daily humbled by God's continual goodness and faithfulness. to be compassionate and loving to those who need it most.